Not posting once a day like I wanted to..

I'm sorry LOL!
Just, I get bored and want to post. haha.
There are a bunch of things I want to talk about right now.

Including the awesome, amazing, inspiring (etc.) CHRISTA BLACK! <3

"it's so funny....you know when you want someone to like you and you go over the top...which actually does the opposite of what you want and REPELS them...so then you try harder...and they run faster?" - Christa Black.
I know I will NEVER change myself for a guy. I used to want to be someone else, (And that was changed since I started reading Christa's blog a couple months ago. It's amazing how one person's story can change everything.) but I knew I would never change myself. I just love Christa's words. Now I know FOR SURE, I will never change myself just for a guy. One of my old songs went something like this "If I have to change who I am, just to hold his hand, he's not worth it" I actually didn't like that song when I wrote it.. but, I think I can fix it up!

"i remember sitting in the service....somehow distracted by this beautiful city and the pull it had on me. i sat in my chair praying...'ok, God....if you really want me to move here....i want a place in manhattan for under $1000 (which i'd heard didn't exist)...and a REASON for moving here.'

i was on the subway for the first time in my life...with people i barely knew, heading into williamsburg, brooklyn....and i looked at my new friend george and asked him...'so what does a place in manhattan cost these days?' to which he replied...'oh, a cell in manhattan is at least $1000,' to which IIIIII replied...."see, i KNEW God didn't want me to move here."

"well," he said. "i could get you a place for $390 in the village." " - Christa Black.
Wow. I pray for my dreams to come true.. but maybe I should do it in the way Christa Black did. Christa, You don't know how amazing you are. I wish I could meet you right now. I would talk to you for 32470935 hours, asking you questions. WOW. just wow. I pray for everyone in the world, but I make sure I specify the Jonas Brothers, their family, friends, and the whole Jonas Brothers team, which includes everyone in the back, anyone that has ANYTHING TO DO WITH THE JONAS BROTHERS. If they were missing just ONE of those people, I swear, Jonas Brothers wouldn't be the same.

Now that I'm done quoting, time to start talking about music.

I keep recording myself singing, but I'm so scared to put them up anywhere! LOL!
I think my voice is okay, I just need more things to do with it.

I'm trying to debate whether I want to take singing lessons or not.. hm. Help please ?

Oh, I can picture myself in a recording studio, recording my first CD. It would be amazing to get paid JUST for doing what I love to do. It would be like, a very lazy person getting paid by watching TV, or an athlete playing their favorite sport. It would just be so amazing.

Then, after I picture myself recording my album, I can picture me recording a song with the Jonas Brothers. gaah, I want this to happen so bad, and tonight, I'll pray like Christa Black.

I got JONAS dividers ! Did I mention that already? It came with three, each of the brothers on each one. Then I got stuck. I had two binders, three dividers. Who would go in a binder alone? I know, it's cheesy, and corny. I decided to put Joe in one, and then the duo tang thing it comes with in that binder. (It has all three of them on it) then Kevin and Nick are in one together. LOL, you guys are probably laughing at me.. no. Laughing WITH me.!

anyways, It's getting late, and I want to watch some TV before I crash.
I'll talk to you later loves!

"I won't break your hearts, cause I'm from CANADA." (haha, get it?)

AINSLEEEEY <3