13 hours, behind a barricade, in the pouring rain with a killer headache

Yupp, yup, story of Saturday September 26th 2009.
So, we woke up at 5:30 am, left at 6:30 and went to Toronto,
we got there around 8:00.
waited,
waited,
and you guessed it,
waited.

I don't know what time it was, but I started to get a headache.
Not a normal headache, the kind I get when I don't eat after two hours.
(I've been tested, and there is no reason why I feel sick when I don't eat)
I felt sick, I didn't want to eat, but I was hungry.

It was raining.

I was at the front. I was right at the barricade.
I would have gotten an autograph.

they never came out.

at 9:30pm, we left.
We couldn't stand anymore.
We were tired and grumpy.

I didn't get to meet any of the Jonai, YET AGAIN,
but that proves that I am a committed fan!

I will get my chance, I know I will.
I'm not hoping, I'm believing.
Just like the quote says:
"Stop hoping, and start believing"

Not much has happened,
so I guess I should go.

HAPPY NINTH BIRTHDAY FRANKIE JONAS <3

Ainsleeeey <3

less than three inches away from Nick Jonas

oighoihe OH MY GOSH.
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.

Yesterday, I almost met Nick Jonas.
OH MY GOSH.
I can't process this. I really can't.

So we were waiting at the main entrance of Four Seasons hotel in Toronto for about two hours and a half or so, and all of a sudden everyone starts running one way, then we realized it was the wrong way, so we turned around. Katy (my best friend) and I ran as fast as we could, about two city blocks cause the hotel is huge. So we get over there, and I'm pretty far away, (I start crying) then I squeeze to get to the front, I get there. I was less than three inches away from part of my dream coming true. I waited for the person to finish, and then Big Rob pulls him away to the other side of the street, or driveway thing. I was so mad. I was crying after cause I was mad at Big Rob for pulling him away, but it's his job, then I was crying in the subway station cause I couldn't believe it. Less than three inches away, one of the most amazing guys was there.

I honestly didn't know I could run that fast. I'm going back next weekend if they're not in Sudbury. (however you spell it, haha.) and my friend Katy said something that was so true. I keep saying next time I'll get a picture or autograph, next time, next time. She said "You keep saying next time, but soon there won't be a next time, so you have to do whatever you can do, and do it the first time"
Something like that.
She said I'm like one of the nicest people in the world, but she won't let my not get a picture with one of them, or an autograph. She will make me push people over there.
She's an amazing friend. I was crying because I didn't get a picture/autograph, and she almost started crying cause of how upset I was. I love her <3

You know what? I know I didn't get an autograph or picture with Nick Jonas, but I was closer than a lot of other girls have ever gotten. And I'm very fortunate.

I prayed and prayed that I would at least see at least one of the Jonases, and I did. God is truly amazing.

I still can't believe this.
Oh my gosh.
I'm almost crying happy tears this very moment.

"Stop hoping, and start believing"

Ainsley <3

ps, alright, now I'm crying. <3 :D

RIP Pactrick Swayze.

Oh my. I don't exactly know Patrick Swayze too well, but I know he's an actor, and he was in pain while he was filming movies. It's so sad to see people in so much agony, but I bet you when they finally get to see god, they know they're out of their misery.

School was alright today.

Wow. I don't have anything else to say today.

This post is a short one.
OH WELL.

maybe I'll have something interesting to write tomorrow..
OH. I got a Camp Rock pen that sings "Play My Music",
but besides that,
I'll talk to you later!

"Get a rep for breaking hearts, now I'm done with super stars"

Ainsley <3
PS. I think I like this font better.

hm.

I'm gonna post now, so that I'm not tempted to do it later when I have projects to do, HAHA.

there isn't much that happened yesterday..
I didn't end up hanging out with my friend D:
Oh well.

I have to finish a project today, make a sign, go help at a fair AND do another project. Luckily the projects aren't due until Tuesday (One day before Nick Jonas' birthday <3>

So, I finished ONE my songs! Want to read it?
(you're gonna read it anyways, cause I said so! :D haha)
This is what I was talking about when I said there were a lot of things I wanted to say, but I couldn't.. but this will give you an idea. here is goes!

If I find out that you've been lyin',
if I find out that she's been cryin'
You better watch you.
If you're asking why,
let's just say I will be your turn to cry.

CHORUS:
I expect you to treat her well,
You better treat her right.
Don't you dare change your mind
at the end of the night.
If you make her cry,
if you cause her any pain,
just know that from me,
you'll get the same.

I don't want to see you
with any other
chick but her.
and if I do,
I'll be after you,
and you will wish that you
were a girl too.

(back to CHORUS)

bridge:
and most of all,
you better catch her,
if she falls
too fast,
too soon,
boy, I'm telling you

(back to CHORUS)

*then I had something else here, but reading it again, it sounds lame. LOL.

I may have to add more verses to make the song longer.
anyways, I better go eat breakfast, try and finish one project, make the sign, and hopefully I can start my other project! bye loves!

"Told you I made dinner plans, with you and me and no one else. That don't include your crazy friends."

Ainsley <3

about go out to bestfriend's house..

and play Left4Dead, yeaaah, we own.

I'm not going to Toronto today..
nor tomorrow.

Maybe next week/weekend.
I will meet them,
and I won't rest until I do!
haha!

anyways, just letting you know that I won't be posting anything else today.
I have to start a project, then hang out with bestfriend, then make a sign for a fair, then maybe work on project. by the time that's done, it will be late.
then on Sunday, I'm helping clean up the fair for community service hours. :D

SOO,
I will talk to you guys tomorrow,
actually, maybe I'll make the sign tomorrow.

anyways, I probably won't post anything important until tomorrow..
if anything happens. HAHA.

bye loves <3

"Hey baby, why you treatin' me bad, hey darlin' you know you're making me mad."

Ainsley bby <3

friend meets Nick Jonas

YESSS, FRIDAAAAY!
I'm so happy.

I'm also so stressed, panicky and anxious.
I neeed to get to Toronto tomorrow. I live about 45 minutes away.

The Jonas Brothers are filming CR2,
and they will be in Toronto for a while.

My friend's friend saw Joe jogging, there is also a picture.
My other friend MET NICK JONAS.
She said "Can I take a picture with you?" and he said "One sec, I have to get something from starbucks, but I'll take one with I come back, I promise"
and then girls saw him on his way out.
she almost didn't get a picture,
but she did, and I'm so happy for her.

This is the chance,
to make one of my biggest dreams come true.
HOLY CRAP.
I need this.
I need my mom to drive me to Toronto.
I NEED TO MEET THEM.

I'm freaking out.
ldhgrel;ghk


I better calm down.
*breathes*

alright.
I'm going to go.
NIGHT LOVES <3

"I just got back from the doctor, he told me that I had a problem, but I realized it you."

Ainsley <3

short blog.

My first day of school was alright, my crush is in my first class :D
but today, the second day, went by soooooo sloooooooowly.
djhflkgj
I thought the day would NEVER end.
but it did,
and now It's time for me to watch some TV and go to bed.
DARN.

I can't finish my songs, no ideas are coming to my head.
maybe I'll take parts out of my already-written songs.

anyways, tomorrow I will probably post more.
but for now,
night loves <3

"Waiting on a cure, but none of them are sure, a little bit longer, and I'll be fine."
wow. It's amazing how just that line means so much to me.

Ainsley <3

school tomorrow.

alright, so there's school tomorrow. I'm kinda nervous, kinda excited. I don't know. UGH.
R.I.P SUMMER '09, the best summer of my life.

So, anyways.
I seem to not be able to finish my songs right now.
hm.
I'll have to think.
But the thing is, I can't sit and write a song.
I have to write it when it comes to my head.
I keep my song book beside me, for the night.
I get ideas when I'm in bed.

I want to not waste my last two hours or freedom on the computer.
I'm just gonna do some catching up on Christa Black's blog.

I am so sad. lkegrjeg

anyways,
I'll talk to you later,
loves.

"She delivered.. GARLIC BREAD ."

Ainsley.

Too all of the haters..

I didn't write yesterday, I was with my friends until 12:30 am.
There are a bunch of things I have on my mind.
Some of which I can't really say on here,
but lets just say I'm writing a song about it,
and I'll post it when it's done.

Anyways,
another thing on my mind is what the Jonas Brothers haters say about the most amazing guys on this earth.

To all of you haters:
I know you guys don't like the Jonas Brothers, and I respect that 100%.
But there are so many things, that shouldn't be said.
Like "I hate the Jonas Brothers"
1. Hate shouldn't be a word
2. You can't truly DISLIKE (not hate) someone UNTIL you met them, UNTIL you see who they really are, not who other people say they are.
3. You can dislike their music, that's fine, but who they are as people ? That's a different story. They did nothing to you. Didn't effect you. These guys are living their dream, and if you can't respect that, you need a reality check.

IF the Jonas Brothers were gay (which they're not, I know they're not) but IF THEY WERE, true fans wouldn't care. I know I wouldn't. Who they are as people won't change, their music won't change. If they were gay, it wouldn't even occur to me to not like them anymore. It doesn't matter whatsoever. It would be the thing that crosses my mind least.

You guys DON'T have to wish death upon these amazing boys. They are living their dream, just like you'll live yours, I'll live mine. It's simple. You can say "I don't like the Jonas Brothers' music" and that would be fine. (I understand some fans are like "You're just jealous" and I don't like how they do that, but coming from a true fan, a committed fan, it's absolutely fine if you say you don't like their music) .

Seriously guys. I don't care who, what or how old you are. If you have the guts to act like this, and say such hurtful things, you honestly don't belong on this earth. And I don't just mean saying all that about JUST the Jonas Brothers, I mean ANYONE. You just don't deserve to be here. Especially now. Hate should stop. War should stop. EVERYTHING MUST STOP.

Please guys, I am begging you. PLEASE, PLEASE stop this non-sense and immaturity. If you believe in the Lord, think about what he is thinking. Do you think he would be proud of you if you just wished death upon someone? No, he wouldn't.

There are people I don't like, and I can say I don't like them, CAUSE.. I'VE.. MET.. THEM. but I would never, ever in this LIFETIME, wish death upon someone, or tell someone I hate them.

Half the things you guys say,
are things you would never, EVER say to their faces.
It makes you a coward.
If you can say something to someone online,
you better be able to say it in real life,
because once you meet them,
THEN you can judge.
Until then,
you can't judge them.

I don't understand why you haters PURPOSELY look for videos
-not just the Jonas Brothers- to bash.
It makes you look like you have no hobbies.
It makes you look like a complete idiot.
It's very dumb to me.
Honestly,
it is SO STUPID.
You need a hobby,
or girlfriend/boyfriend
OR SOMETHING.
You should have better things to do.

Stop this now.

STOP.

I've said some of that before, in my first blog post, but I will be repeating it over and over, until it gets through people's thick skulls.

Think about what I said.

"I think people don't realize that when they're making fun of us, we're laughing too. Every South Park or whatever, it's like 'That's hilarious'." -Joe Jonas

"And we've heard it all. You know, I heard it all going through high school. So it's like, whatever, throw your shots. At the end of the day, I know who I am as a person, and I think people forget because of what we do that we grow up, too, and that we change. We have a life journey to go on ourselves" - Kevin Jonas

Think about it.

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ANYWAYS,
now that that's off my chest,
here is another part of that article in Rolling Stone magazine:

"When it comes to changing, music may change, our lives may change, but who we are as people will not. I believe that the people that we were before we started the band are the same people we are today. We've just grown up in height. I mean, I'm the tallest but.." - Nick Jonas

"There's a very competitive side to us, as you can tell. Like, I'm just going to say it. I've started beating everybody at golf." - Kevin Jonas

"Well, yeah, but I haven't been playing." - Nick Jonas

I just had to add that. I love it. haha!

Heres a sneak peek of the song I'm writing!

when you're not here,
I'm loosing my sane.
but where you're here,
it's just the same.

If you're here,
If you're there,
you can be anywhere,
I don't know what to do,
because no matter where you are
I'm still going
crazy for you.

still going crazy
for you baby.

I don't know what will be the chorus and all that yet :P

anyways, I better go.
I'm hanging out with my friends again!
I gotta get ready.

I'll talk to you all later!
bye loves!

"I'm avoiding the lines, cause the just might split."

Ainsley <3

Not posting once a day like I wanted to..

I'm sorry LOL!
Just, I get bored and want to post. haha.
There are a bunch of things I want to talk about right now.

Including the awesome, amazing, inspiring (etc.) CHRISTA BLACK! <3

"it's so funny....you know when you want someone to like you and you go over the top...which actually does the opposite of what you want and REPELS them...so then you try harder...and they run faster?" - Christa Black.
I know I will NEVER change myself for a guy. I used to want to be someone else, (And that was changed since I started reading Christa's blog a couple months ago. It's amazing how one person's story can change everything.) but I knew I would never change myself. I just love Christa's words. Now I know FOR SURE, I will never change myself just for a guy. One of my old songs went something like this "If I have to change who I am, just to hold his hand, he's not worth it" I actually didn't like that song when I wrote it.. but, I think I can fix it up!

"i remember sitting in the service....somehow distracted by this beautiful city and the pull it had on me. i sat in my chair praying...'ok, God....if you really want me to move here....i want a place in manhattan for under $1000 (which i'd heard didn't exist)...and a REASON for moving here.'

i was on the subway for the first time in my life...with people i barely knew, heading into williamsburg, brooklyn....and i looked at my new friend george and asked him...'so what does a place in manhattan cost these days?' to which he replied...'oh, a cell in manhattan is at least $1000,' to which IIIIII replied...."see, i KNEW God didn't want me to move here."

"well," he said. "i could get you a place for $390 in the village." " - Christa Black.
Wow. I pray for my dreams to come true.. but maybe I should do it in the way Christa Black did. Christa, You don't know how amazing you are. I wish I could meet you right now. I would talk to you for 32470935 hours, asking you questions. WOW. just wow. I pray for everyone in the world, but I make sure I specify the Jonas Brothers, their family, friends, and the whole Jonas Brothers team, which includes everyone in the back, anyone that has ANYTHING TO DO WITH THE JONAS BROTHERS. If they were missing just ONE of those people, I swear, Jonas Brothers wouldn't be the same.

Now that I'm done quoting, time to start talking about music.

I keep recording myself singing, but I'm so scared to put them up anywhere! LOL!
I think my voice is okay, I just need more things to do with it.

I'm trying to debate whether I want to take singing lessons or not.. hm. Help please ?

Oh, I can picture myself in a recording studio, recording my first CD. It would be amazing to get paid JUST for doing what I love to do. It would be like, a very lazy person getting paid by watching TV, or an athlete playing their favorite sport. It would just be so amazing.

Then, after I picture myself recording my album, I can picture me recording a song with the Jonas Brothers. gaah, I want this to happen so bad, and tonight, I'll pray like Christa Black.

I got JONAS dividers ! Did I mention that already? It came with three, each of the brothers on each one. Then I got stuck. I had two binders, three dividers. Who would go in a binder alone? I know, it's cheesy, and corny. I decided to put Joe in one, and then the duo tang thing it comes with in that binder. (It has all three of them on it) then Kevin and Nick are in one together. LOL, you guys are probably laughing at me.. no. Laughing WITH me.!

anyways, It's getting late, and I want to watch some TV before I crash.
I'll talk to you later loves!

"I won't break your hearts, cause I'm from CANADA." (haha, get it?)

AINSLEEEEY <3

BORED!

It's 4:52 pm, and I'm BORED. I'm waiting for Hannah Montana to come on, then I'm going to watch JONAS <--- oh yeaaah <3

So, I'm not done hanging up my posters, I was out all day.
Got my hair cut!
AND,
I got JONAS dividers, and binders (they're not JONAS binders) I'm only using two binders this year, so I don't have to carry two binders for my first two classes (I don't like going back to my locker)

ANYWAYS,
I'm reaaaaally hoping the Jonas Brothers come back to Toronto soon.. It's only been about 6 days, and I miss them already.
I'll have yet ANOTHER chance to meet them again, most likely. I need this to happen for me.
Somehow, sometime, I will meet the most amazing guys on this earth.
Oh I will.
I can see that moment in my brain. (like a little tv thing, haha)
OR
I want to make a video for "My Date With..." If they have another Jonas Brothers one. I think I would have a good chance of at least getting in the finals. My room is covered in posters, all my camp rock and JONAS stuff, my dreams, I think I can win that.

I'm starting to realllly change my attitude towards things. Wow, blogs help. And Christa Black helps a lot. I love her, she is amazing. Thank you Christa!

I am thinking more positively about my dreams, myself, how I look. I think it's amazing.

Sorry that this is so short today.
I'm just so tired. I got up at 15 to 8:00,
because the place that I wanted to get my haircut at only costs $2.99 right now, It just opened.
And there are like 3, 4 hour waits. Luckily, mine was only 1.5 hours. And my mom had to do some shopping in the plaza anyways!
Phew.
I love my hair.

CRAP MY STRAIGHTENER IS STILL ON!
I gotta go straighten my hair (see how it looks)
then watch HM and JONAS!

"Everyone's allergic to Poison Ivy!"
Talk soon loves!
Ainsleeeey.

4:27, HUGRY!

I'm SO hungry right now.. Hm. My parents are napping.. I wonder what's for dinner.. OH YEAH. Spaghetti! YAY! Maybe I'll start making it for them. We will see!

Alright, now for some Jonas related things.
Tomorrow is FRIDAY, you know what that means.. JONAS! (If you're in Canada)

Anyways,
I am STILL moving my posters around. I think I FINALLY got it all organized. There are a few more stray posters on my ceiling that need to be moved, and there are a few posters that aren't hanging up. The posters on my ceiling were covering about 3/4 of my ceiling, now it's only a little more than half, so I can buy more posters! When I run out of room (probably in the next month or so) I have an idea! I will get two posters (the ones from magazines) and paperclip them or whatever together (since the back of magazine posters usually are posters of other people, or just other articles in there) with the posters facing out. You know what I mean. I will hole punch them, and hang them from my ceiling. that.. would.. look.. SO COOL. ds;kgfs;lkjgh :D

I'm not even going to TRY and tell you how many times I almost had a heart attack by falling off the step stool. Oh my goodness.

Since my ceiling is that bumpy stuff, hanging up posters causes that stuff to fall..
..into my eyes. It hurts.

I'm thinking about making a list of goals, goals I want to accomplish before I die.
-Meet the Jonas Brothers [NOT YET!]
-Get the Jonas Brothers autograph [NOT YET!]
-Go to a Jonas Brothers concert [CHECK!]
-Be less than three feet away from a or all Jonas' [CHECK!]
-Go down in a cage with sharks [NOT YET!]
-Get a Gibson Les Paul Guitar [NOT YET!]
-Become a singer/artist [NOT YET!]
-Become a professional Guitarist [NOT YET!]

I think that's it. There are a couple of other things, but you get the point. Most of them have things to do with the Jonas Brothers. A lot of my goals also blend with the "Become a singer/artist" goal, so yeah! I WILL let those happen, and I will not die without accomplishing those goals!

I've been playing my guitar, but I'm having some problems with the new chords the book is teaching me. it doesn't even tell you the chord, you know the right fingerings. I'm at the chords with three or four strings, but only one/no fingers are down. As you can tell, I don't know how to talk in "Guitarist Language" but I have guitar in grade 10 this year (4 more days D: ) so that will help too!

I better go. TV TIME! :D
Hopefully dinner will be ready at 5:00. It's 4:41!
Let's hope.


Bye Loves!

"You can't have a world war III, if there's only one side fighting"

Ainsley <3

8:09 pm, STILL moving the posters around!

Don't worry though,
there was about a two or three hour break in between now, and when I started moving my posters!

Tomorrow, I'm going to start trying to only post once on my blog per day. I'll keep notes on what I want to say.


So you all know, that my dream is to meet the Jonas Brothers and all that sauce,
but, You guys don't know my second dream.
You know I love songwriting, and my dream is to become a singer. I can't sing well, but I actually kinda like my voice! I mainly just want to be a songwriter, but I don't think I want other people to sing my songs! I want one of my songs to be #1, and I want to be able to sing it, and say "I wrote that".
Just like Nick Jonas said (speaking of the Rogers Centre in Toronto) "We will play there one day" well, that's my dream too.

I think it's time for you to read one of my.. half decent songs.

First day of high school,
I look his way.
I knew I loved him
but would he EVER love me too?

Lunch time,
I walk up to him.
My knees start to get weak,
When he looks my way.
I just can't speak.

CHORUS:
Tomorrow will be the day,
to tell you, I'll find a way.
No more walking away.
Just like today, just like yesterday
I'm gonna say what need to say,
what I need to say

Grade ten
came and went,
and it's almost the end of grade eleven.
Today will be the day.

I call his name,
he walks to me
My heart starts beating faster
as he gets nearer.

My knees start to get weak,
Again, I just can't speak.

CHORUS

Prom
came along,
I put on my dress,
trying to hide the tears
behind a smile.
Just in a little while,
I'll see him for the last time.
tonight will be the night.

I walk down that stair case,
there he is,
standing at the door.
He says I look beautiful,
and he hopes it isn't too late,
to ask me to be his prom date.

CHORUS #2:
Tomorrow was the day,
but today,
to tell each other, we found a way.
No more walking away.
just like yesterday
because we've said what we needed to say,
needed to say

Hm.
I really wish I could write like the Jonas Brothers.
They're so inspiring.
Music is my life.

I better go finish hanging up my posters!

"It's a hope for all the hopeless, in the worse of trying times"

Bye lovees!
Ainsley <3

3:07 pm, rearranging posters.

Hello!

I'm rearranging my posters, to make everything look more organized.
My thumbs hurt from pushing push pins into my walls and ceiling.
I'm sweating cause my room is so hot,
and my neck hurts from looking at the ceiling so much trying to hang them up!
but it's for the Jonas Brothers,
and I would do anything for them.

I don't really have anything to say today..
Hm. Let me think.

I have an idea,
I'll tell you all the Jonas Brothers related ITEMS I have. I won't tell you how many pictures/posters I have.

So,
I have:
-Camp Rock Joe doll
-The second Rolling Stone magazine
-The collector's Rolling Stone magazine (I'm gonna buy another one, so I can take the posters out of one, and frame the other)
- 2 Camp Rock lip balms (I used one already)
-The Camp Rock gift bags from Dollarama (If you don't live in Canada, it's just an amazing dollar store)
-Camp Rock easter chocolate thing (eaten already, but I took pictures, of course)
-Camp Rock diary
-Joe Necklace (they didn't make ones with all three of them on it!)
-Some Camp Rock locker thing that plays music
-Camp Rock pencil case
-Camp Rock duo tang
-Burning Up book
-Camp Rock dry erase board
-The Camp Rock activity thing that came with a bunch of stickers and stuff
-Camp Rock slap bracelet (I was going to get all ..four? I think there were four. but I didn't have enough money at the time, and I think they're gone now)
-Camp Rock rings
-Camp Rock sticker book
-Camp Rock sticker from one of those machines
-Jonas Brothers key chain
-Jonas Brothers pin (that you wear on your shirt or whatever)
-JONAS sharpener
-Camp Rock push-up eraser
-Camp Rock pencil tin
-Camp Rock note pad
-Camp Rock paddle ball
-Of course I have Lines, Vines And Trying Times! (I kept the receipt, bag and package for that, <3)
-Camp Rock bubbles
-Camp Rock pins (it comes with 7)
-Two packages of JONAS mechanical pencils (one is one I will use at school, and one to keep. They come with three)
-Camp Rock magnet activities (I don't know what it is, I haven't opened it)
-Another Camp Rock note pad, but it's a different kind.
-JONAS 5 piece set (two pencils, sharpener, eraser, note pad)
-Camp Rock printer paper
-JONAS back pack
-JONAS pencil case
and there are a few JONAS things I'm getting for back to school.

I didn't realize I had THAT many things.
LOL!
I may have a couple more things laying around the house.

I will be counting my posters, and i'll tell you how many of those I have.
If ANY of you don't believe me,
comment!
I can prove it all to you.

Anyways, It's 3:24, I have to go to the grocery store with my dad.
I may post something else today, only if anything happens!

"There's a lot that you don't notice, when you read between the lines"

Bye loves!
Ainsley
ps, maybe later I'll post one of my songs?
We'll see! <3

Different events that passed! (just what happened and such!)

I went to the MMVA's.
Here is my experience!

I was in the MMVA's wristband line from 8:00 am on Friday June 12th, until 8:00 am on Saturday June 13th when they STARTED handing out the wristbands.
I didn't get my wristband till later in the day.
MIND YOU IT WAS DOWNTOWN TORONTO (If you haven't been there, and you're planning on going, you're in for a treat!) across the street from a club. I only got two hours sleep. But I got wristbands. And I was so excited. I miss wearing it! I had to wear it for a week!

On Sunday June 21st (the day of the MMVA's) we weren't allowed to line up until 6:00 am, I got there at 5:30 am. (I really did wake up at 3:30 am) Sat in the sun, had a little bit of heat stroke.

We all thought we heard the drums for Burnin' Up, we heard their voices, and it was then. It was the moment I was waiting for. The Jonas Brothers were doing their soundcheck. I ran, and ran. I saw them. For the first time, they were right in front of my eyes. I could hardly take pictures. I was shaking. I couldn't event stand on my tippy toes to see.

I had to sit until 6:00 pm, knowing the Jonas Brothers were not even a block away.
They started letting us in at 6:00pm. I didn't get in until a little bit after 7:00pm. MMVA's started at 9:00 pm.

So, the smoke started. The music started. 9:00pm came, and the speakers moved. They were right there. I was two people away from the stage. I can't believe it, still, I can't believe it. I balled my eyes out. It was the most amazing thing to ever happen to me.

We were yelling "WALMART, FACEBOOK" and all three of them looked over. We yelled all the band member's names, they looked over. Kevin played the guitar to me (and the people around me) and Nick almost touched my hand. I can't believe it. I was really there.

August 30th. Jonas Brothers were at MuchMusic, L@M (Live@Much)
Unfortunately, I couldn't stay overnight to wait to get front row, but I was able to stand on a baracade, with my mom holding me up. I saw them, again. Less than 10 feet away, the most amazing guys in the world were right there.

around 5:00 pm, time to get in line to go inside the Rogers Centre. They let us in at 6:00pm. After waiting about two hours, the lady went to scan my friend's ticket. Wouldn't scan. So we hde to walk through a crowd of about 10,000 people (and that was only two gates!) to go back to the ticketmaster place. Yeah, don't buy tickets from scalpters. They said it was a real ticket, but it's the kind you rip off, not scan. So we went to a different gate, we were in line for about 10 minutes. The people automatically knew to rip off the tickets, so we missed Honor Society, because one chick didn't know what she was doing! Shame.

We got to see Wondergirls and Jordan Sparks! And there was a suprize, Demi Lovato sang After Joe sang "Gotta Find You" I knew she was coming ahead of time!

9:00pm. Jonas time. They came on. It was amazing.
Nick's speech made me cry, yet again.
Joe hurt himself, again. (Jumped and did a flip on the trampoline, landed on his bum. POOR JOE)
Kevin flipped while playing his guitar, yet again.

In Nick's speech, he said is was driving past the Rogers Centre in Toronto (while filming camp rock) and he said "We will play there one day" and August 30th, 2009 was the day.

My first Jonas Bothers concert, and my first concert ever.

They said it was the biggest, loudest, and most beautiful crowd they played for on this tour. 56,000 people. Sold out show. Amazing.

Those were the best days of my life so far.
I wonder what's going to happen next.

10:07 Pm, September 1st 2009

Alright,
I'm not much as a writer, when it's not writing music, so don't expect anything "formal" !



Before I start my blog, I want to introduce myself and all that jazz.



My name is Ainsley Warnes, and as you can see, I'm a huge Jonas Brothers fan. I think I'm different than the other fans, and I'll explain that later.



I am obsessed with music, and the Jonas Brothers are the ones who made me want to be involved in music. I will try to post songs I've written that I'm proud of, but, I want you to be aware that I am not as experienced as the Jonas Brothers. They've inspired me to play the guitar, which I'm learning. Slowly, but surely.



Christa Black actually made me want to start a blog.
It will make me feel better.
Christa is helping me feel better about myself. Just like she said, when people start to call you, or tell you things, you will start to agree. No matter if it's good or bad. Just like I was called ugly and fat. The truth is, I used to think I was ugly and fat, and reading Christa's blog has actually made me rethink things over. I don't think I'm the most beautiful thing, but I am beautiful, just like any other girl reading this. I'm not fat, my weight is just fine. I fit in the clothes I like. I'm starting to be satisfied with myself.



I can't believe how much music helps. Especially the Jonas Brothers songs. There is just something about them. Something so amazing, something so different. It's not about sex, drugs, death, depression, it's about love, faith, believing.



If you're reading this, and you're a Jonas Brothers hater, stop and think. If you've said you hate them, it isn't possible. It's just not possible if you haven't met them. It isn't possible to hate any human being. If you've wished death upon the boys, you need to rethink. Was that necessary? If you believe in the lord, why would you say something like that? What do you think the lord is thinking about you? Do you have to hate? Do you have to wish death? Why can't you just leave them be. You don't like them, it's fine. But how can you not love them? They're absolutely amazing. There isn't ANY REASON why anyone wouldn't like them. There is nothing about them to DISLIKE. You may follow what other people say, you may dislike their music, but you cannot dislike them as people. It's just not possible, and that's coming from my heart. It's not because I'm a fan, it's because it's true. Think about what I said.



Now, time for me to explain why I think I'm a different kind of fan.
I do not just like them for their gorgeous looks, their amazing voices, their talent. I love them as people. If they were the most untalented people in the world, I would still be as big as a fan as I am now. I can't event explain the feelings I have for them, but I'm going to try. The things they say, the way they treat everyone. Them being here brightened my life. I don't know how I lived 13 years without knowing they existed. I am now 15. I've been a fan for about two years, almost three. I'm sorry guys, I just can't explain why they're so amazing, it's physically impossible. I can't even explain it to myself why they're so amazing.



Meeting them would make my life complete.
If I was on my death bed right now, I would hold on until I met them, then my life would be complete.
I need to meet them before I die.
I'm not saying I have any sickness or anything that will kill me, but I'm saying I won't die, without meeting those amazing guys. I just wish more guys were like them.



I am writing this blog,
to show people my journey as a Jonas Brothers fan.
I will tell you how their music made me get better over a heart break, how one of their concerts made a new memory.



And I will blog until I meet them.
Until my life is complete.



This is the only way I can let people know I am different than the rest of the fans.
It will hopefully let haters know it's fine that they're not fans,
but they don't need to say such hurtful things.
There are a lot of people I don't like,
but I've met them, I know who they are.
I can judge who I've met.
But I would never,
EVER,
say that I hate them.
Every time I say the word "hate" it makes me ashamed.
It shouldn't even be a word.



10:29,
Wow, the time went by so fast.
I'm going to go watch some TV.



Thanks for reading this.
I hope you will be following this blog.



"Live like you're at the bottom, even if you're at the top"



Good night loves,
Ainsley